what tool are you

again this is another question of trying to choose which tool you are drawn too i dont really feel im drawn particularly to a certain tool as all the tools are equally as important. If i were to choose a tool to use mostly though it would have to be the pentacle, i believe the pentacle is the most powerful part of any ritual as it creates the portal and allows you to envoke the spirits and allow them into your circle to be able to use their powers. the pentacle is a star that is encircled by a right the points of the star signify the elements of life earth wind fire water and heart the circle is the embodiment of the earth that encases all these elements. to use the pentacle in a ritual allows you to enrich the energetic powers that you already posess as a living being, the gods are only there to guide you in your ritual and allow you to see what you are doing and allow you the strength to complete your goal. the pentacle is just one tool in a pantheon of tools that one can use to enrich his/her experience in the world of wicca.

darkraven hyacinthe

my elements

When dealing with the elements of earth fire wind and water it is very hard to be able to choose just one element to identify with everyone is made up of all the elements in different ways. the human body is made up of mostly water the flesh comes from the earth and is recycled back into the earth the heart is full of fiery passion and the mind is imaginitive floating on air just wondering and thinking of things non stop trying to identify yourself with just one element is like trying to identify yourself with something or someone that you dont have anything in common with. trying to find something in common with just one element or trying to figure out which element embodies you is just not the easiest thing in the world but if i had to identify myself with one element i would say i most identify with fire because i am a passionate person and i have a very firey passionate heart. i always go at anything with full speed i dont quit until its done or until im satisfied with the result. i have a heart of gold as well, most people tell me. i will fight for my friends until the death if need be i will stay your friend until the end of time i will never leave your side unless you want me to, if that is ever the case you will also never get me back. once i fully leave i normally dont look back on past occurences including friends. being associated with fire is a very liberating and free thing for me it makes me feel free and feel like a phoenix rising through all the obstacles that are thrown my way from day today. but being associated with fire can also get you burned so its best not to cross me if you find youve upset me. i love everyone with all my heart you all burn passionately within me.

darkraven hyacinthe

my seeds of life are being sown slowly

this blog has taken me a long time to attain the courage to write. the questions that have been posed to me to answer were very thoughtful and made me really analyze my life and think about what is really going on with me. I am really not sure if i have balanced any part of my life i know that i want to become independent and allow myself to live on my own and be my own person, to do this i want to be able to go back to school i want to learn to be a webmaster and allow myself to be my own boss and learn to create websites and things learning html and things of that nature. to be able to balance my life i would love to find a way to get my sanity back and allow myself to get out from under my parents and not use them as crutches i want to do things for myself. My own laundry and dishes and floor washing etc etc. i want to be able to have friends i can go out and have fun with them and go out and create new experiences for myself. i want to travel and see new places ive never seen before. im not sure what else i can do to achieve this balance in my life i am just living day by day and allowing myself to live my life the best i can. in this balance i do find that the moon cycles somewhat effect the way i think and feel sometimes i have days of happiness then i have days of woe and depression and lethargy i dont want to do anything just sit around and mope around and just be in the world not mattering to anyone, i do go out and play with my animals sometimes though i believe that i do have somewhat of a calming effect on some animals but not all i can tell if they are becoming calmer or not, if not i put them down before i get attacked :). my dogs love me, they always know when im upset or bored or happy they come running to me and show me so much love. it will be a sad day when i lose them and they wont be back. when i sleep at night after playing with my pets and working out and such i do tend to dream and there are times i have had precognitive dreams, i have had small things happen in my life that i have thought about or wanted to happen. This always surprises me and allows me to make better decisions in my life to better myself and my existence, showing me that i can live in this world on my own and i am going to some day!.

darkraven hyacinthe

thoth and ma'at

in my quest to figure out the path i want to follow i have chosen to travel down and egyptian road i have chosen to extensively research thoth and Ma'at as my god and goddess figure of this beautiful culture. thoth wsa the god of writing music and science and was also known the be a judge of the dead before Ma'at was to judge the person with a feather weighing their misgivings against the feather determining where they were to go in the afterlife. it has also been said that he was the one who actually gave ra, god of sun a voice and allowed him to be transcribed into english and understandable language he has also been likened as the mind of god as as one of the two dieties that stood on ra's boat (the other being Ma'at) thoth has been known to be seen as a man with the head of a full ibis. he is also known by jehuti dhjeuti tehuti zehuti tecu and many other names too numerous to list. Ma'at is known as the goddess of balance truth and order as was said before she was a keeper of the after life and was able to way the misgivings of the dead with a feather and able to judge where they went in the afterlife. she was harmony, Ma'at literally means truth in egyptian. people thought that without order in the world everything would be chaos if ma'at didnt exist so they held true reverence in her more so than thoth, ma'at was the personification of order in the universe without which all of creation would fall to chaos, at any event that was to be judged ma'at was said to be there and was envoked to bless the judge so as to allow him to judge impartially and fairly in anything he foresaw, in the underworld the hearts of the dead were weighed by anubis against ma'ats feather if the heart was full of wicked seeds it would be fed to ammit if not then it would be send to osiris in the blessed land ma'at's presence in all worlds is universal all gods deffered to her. i believe these are the two main gods in the egyptian pantheon in my eyes and they are the ones that restore order and allow us all to live in the peace and harmony we live every day.

witches and witchcraft, what are they?

a witch is a person male or female that is a wonderer and a wanderer always wanting to experience new things always traveling and wanting to travel to new places especially with in the mind always wanting to be challenged and take his/her mind to places that no one else can go. they push themselves to do things that no ordinary person would even imagine doing a witch is a person who is able to use there ability of magick for good and understands that it is not to be used for selfish and self serving reasons only to be able to better understand ones self through spirit and faith and to better strenghten the soul and allow the person to become better in everything they do. a witch is a person who knows how to control these things and knows how to use them to better his ability in life. in history though witches were villified characters of people who just didnt want to believe in change and difference. historically witches were seen as shamans and magic people and in the predominant religion of the time (christianity) no one wanted to believe in anything else so anyone who was thought to "practice magick" was put on trial and sometimes unfairly executed in many ways, in later years they actually came up with different "tests" to see if you were a witch or not. dunking and burning and many things that could be seen as torture today, historically it has also been found that there may really have not been magick being practiced but most of the people in this puritan society were being poisoned with their own stock of wheat! they were being poisoned by a fungus known as ergot so back during this time alot of very innocent people were slaughtered and died for no real reason and i believe it was at this point we lost all freedom to practice anything we wanted that is why today most other religions are looked down upon or strangely upon in other sects of religion. wicca is one of these religions that is not really "believed to be a religion" by most people although this is not my view i believe wicca is just as much a faith as any other faith that anyone else in the world practices.

witchcraft is the ability to be able to use the powers that you already posess as a natural human and to be able to amplify them and cast them in use for the bettering of your life and the things around you i believe witchcraft really isnt a physical thing that can be felt but it is more of a spiritual "magickal" thing that if you believe you can achieve anything. the ability of a witch to do witch craft only depends on the way the witch percieves the use of such craft. witchcraft is supposed to be used to strengthen ones self and emtional value and to able that person to see everything else in a better more positive light, although historically speaking witchcraft has not always been seen as such. it has been seen as something physical that is used to harm people and scare people and used as a manipulative tool to gain things for anothers control etc etc. the use of witchraft in this case is very discpicable and i believe that the ones who use/used it for this manner never fully got what they deserved and they always ended up going down the wrong road. my new found road in wicca is teaching me lots i am still learning the ways of witchcraft and the ways of a witch i hope one day to be able to feel the energies of the earth and be more intune with my magick self.

darkraven hyacinthe

who are the gods

when i think of god I normally think of a presence rather than a white light like most people would lead you to believe but if you want to talk physical appearance i believe that the god and goddess could have some form of energetic bal like a ball of energy in the middle of a reactor or a "magical" ball like in a picture. that is how i physically percieve the physical manifestations of the god and godess. although the god and godess are all around us in the earth air water and in our hearts. i believe that the god and godess aside from appearing as forms of energy also appear all around us. i think that the energy that is posessed within the lightening and thunder and rain and sun and wind and waves and currents and all things of nature are also representations of the god and godess. i must admit i cant really choose one pantheon of gods i believe that all gods should have equal worship and you should give all gods equal presence in your life in some way but if i were to choose a pantheon of gods to worship i would have to go towards the egyptian path. i have always been intrigued by egyptian culture and ive always felt protected by the egyptian gods and closest to them. i think the egyptians were the most ethical and rule abiding society and rule that ever lived i think that following the egyptian path could be a way to follow a good way of discipline and motivation to keep me going through this not to want to slack off and become lacquadaisical in my newly found faith i want to do good and be a good wiccan i believe that they can help me achieve that. at this time i cant think of the god and godess in the egyptian pantheon but this is the group i am most drawn to and i have given my reasons why. although there were times where i did feel close to hecate as well as she is the queen mother of all witches i always respect her.

darkraven hyacinthe

my beginnings in wicca

my road through wicca and to the actual teachings of wicca as i am going through now has been quite long and curvy. it all started back in 99 when i met an actual wiccan i had never heard of the religion before and what i had heard about it was later found out to be all misconception and myth. When i was away from this person i somewhat began questioning my beliefs in christianity and the bible i began to wonder what was really feasible and what wasnt. I began to question everything around me. Throughout the years i began to find everything i could on witches and warlocks and candles and colors and anything to do with wicca. As the years went on i reallly wanted to be involved in this religion but being brought up in a christian family i was afraid my parents would shun me and/or disown me for my alternative beliefs. it has been really hard for me to embrace this religion based on that factor but now that i am older and i dont really care what my parents say anymore, i have become my own person and i can fully embrace what this religion has to offer for me. i want to be able to grow and understand myself better as a person ,understand the things around me and being able to listen to the earth more accurately i want to be more in tune with the souls and energies around me and to feel more openly and honestly i wnt this journey to be an interesting and very challenging one and i want to be able to grow from every challenge. thank you phoenix for guiding me.

darkraven hyacinthe