thoth and ma'at

in my quest to figure out the path i want to follow i have chosen to travel down and egyptian road i have chosen to extensively research thoth and Ma'at as my god and goddess figure of this beautiful culture. thoth wsa the god of writing music and science and was also known the be a judge of the dead before Ma'at was to judge the person with a feather weighing their misgivings against the feather determining where they were to go in the afterlife. it has also been said that he was the one who actually gave ra, god of sun a voice and allowed him to be transcribed into english and understandable language he has also been likened as the mind of god as as one of the two dieties that stood on ra's boat (the other being Ma'at) thoth has been known to be seen as a man with the head of a full ibis. he is also known by jehuti dhjeuti tehuti zehuti tecu and many other names too numerous to list. Ma'at is known as the goddess of balance truth and order as was said before she was a keeper of the after life and was able to way the misgivings of the dead with a feather and able to judge where they went in the afterlife. she was harmony, Ma'at literally means truth in egyptian. people thought that without order in the world everything would be chaos if ma'at didnt exist so they held true reverence in her more so than thoth, ma'at was the personification of order in the universe without which all of creation would fall to chaos, at any event that was to be judged ma'at was said to be there and was envoked to bless the judge so as to allow him to judge impartially and fairly in anything he foresaw, in the underworld the hearts of the dead were weighed by anubis against ma'ats feather if the heart was full of wicked seeds it would be fed to ammit if not then it would be send to osiris in the blessed land ma'at's presence in all worlds is universal all gods deffered to her. i believe these are the two main gods in the egyptian pantheon in my eyes and they are the ones that restore order and allow us all to live in the peace and harmony we live every day.

witches and witchcraft, what are they?

a witch is a person male or female that is a wonderer and a wanderer always wanting to experience new things always traveling and wanting to travel to new places especially with in the mind always wanting to be challenged and take his/her mind to places that no one else can go. they push themselves to do things that no ordinary person would even imagine doing a witch is a person who is able to use there ability of magick for good and understands that it is not to be used for selfish and self serving reasons only to be able to better understand ones self through spirit and faith and to better strenghten the soul and allow the person to become better in everything they do. a witch is a person who knows how to control these things and knows how to use them to better his ability in life. in history though witches were villified characters of people who just didnt want to believe in change and difference. historically witches were seen as shamans and magic people and in the predominant religion of the time (christianity) no one wanted to believe in anything else so anyone who was thought to "practice magick" was put on trial and sometimes unfairly executed in many ways, in later years they actually came up with different "tests" to see if you were a witch or not. dunking and burning and many things that could be seen as torture today, historically it has also been found that there may really have not been magick being practiced but most of the people in this puritan society were being poisoned with their own stock of wheat! they were being poisoned by a fungus known as ergot so back during this time alot of very innocent people were slaughtered and died for no real reason and i believe it was at this point we lost all freedom to practice anything we wanted that is why today most other religions are looked down upon or strangely upon in other sects of religion. wicca is one of these religions that is not really "believed to be a religion" by most people although this is not my view i believe wicca is just as much a faith as any other faith that anyone else in the world practices.

witchcraft is the ability to be able to use the powers that you already posess as a natural human and to be able to amplify them and cast them in use for the bettering of your life and the things around you i believe witchcraft really isnt a physical thing that can be felt but it is more of a spiritual "magickal" thing that if you believe you can achieve anything. the ability of a witch to do witch craft only depends on the way the witch percieves the use of such craft. witchcraft is supposed to be used to strengthen ones self and emtional value and to able that person to see everything else in a better more positive light, although historically speaking witchcraft has not always been seen as such. it has been seen as something physical that is used to harm people and scare people and used as a manipulative tool to gain things for anothers control etc etc. the use of witchraft in this case is very discpicable and i believe that the ones who use/used it for this manner never fully got what they deserved and they always ended up going down the wrong road. my new found road in wicca is teaching me lots i am still learning the ways of witchcraft and the ways of a witch i hope one day to be able to feel the energies of the earth and be more intune with my magick self.

darkraven hyacinthe

who are the gods

when i think of god I normally think of a presence rather than a white light like most people would lead you to believe but if you want to talk physical appearance i believe that the god and goddess could have some form of energetic bal like a ball of energy in the middle of a reactor or a "magical" ball like in a picture. that is how i physically percieve the physical manifestations of the god and godess. although the god and godess are all around us in the earth air water and in our hearts. i believe that the god and godess aside from appearing as forms of energy also appear all around us. i think that the energy that is posessed within the lightening and thunder and rain and sun and wind and waves and currents and all things of nature are also representations of the god and godess. i must admit i cant really choose one pantheon of gods i believe that all gods should have equal worship and you should give all gods equal presence in your life in some way but if i were to choose a pantheon of gods to worship i would have to go towards the egyptian path. i have always been intrigued by egyptian culture and ive always felt protected by the egyptian gods and closest to them. i think the egyptians were the most ethical and rule abiding society and rule that ever lived i think that following the egyptian path could be a way to follow a good way of discipline and motivation to keep me going through this not to want to slack off and become lacquadaisical in my newly found faith i want to do good and be a good wiccan i believe that they can help me achieve that. at this time i cant think of the god and godess in the egyptian pantheon but this is the group i am most drawn to and i have given my reasons why. although there were times where i did feel close to hecate as well as she is the queen mother of all witches i always respect her.

darkraven hyacinthe

my beginnings in wicca

my road through wicca and to the actual teachings of wicca as i am going through now has been quite long and curvy. it all started back in 99 when i met an actual wiccan i had never heard of the religion before and what i had heard about it was later found out to be all misconception and myth. When i was away from this person i somewhat began questioning my beliefs in christianity and the bible i began to wonder what was really feasible and what wasnt. I began to question everything around me. Throughout the years i began to find everything i could on witches and warlocks and candles and colors and anything to do with wicca. As the years went on i reallly wanted to be involved in this religion but being brought up in a christian family i was afraid my parents would shun me and/or disown me for my alternative beliefs. it has been really hard for me to embrace this religion based on that factor but now that i am older and i dont really care what my parents say anymore, i have become my own person and i can fully embrace what this religion has to offer for me. i want to be able to grow and understand myself better as a person ,understand the things around me and being able to listen to the earth more accurately i want to be more in tune with the souls and energies around me and to feel more openly and honestly i wnt this journey to be an interesting and very challenging one and i want to be able to grow from every challenge. thank you phoenix for guiding me.

darkraven hyacinthe